Category Archives: Rants
Then I knew what the trouble was.
I needed experience.
How could I write about life when I’d never had a love affair or a baby or even seen anybody die?
~Esther; The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
I was reading Sylvia Plath’s The Bell Jar and I came upon these sentences. Why was I reading? Why was I reading so many books? I want to write someday. I’ve been seeing the words being sewn into sentences, then into paragraphs. I had scenarios and some nice music was even playing at the back, even if I cannot include that to what I write. It was legendary in my mind. I could even smell the ending of my story.
And then I write. And everything seems wrong. And parts were not coming together. And then I realize that I cannot write at all. I’m no good as a writer as I am no good as a person.
I thought reading can supplement what I lack in experience, and they do. They let me in on the writer’s out of this world stories but still not enough. I now know, that If I just feed my hungry mind with reading and less experience, I would just end up copying what I read. Consciously and unconsciously.
Kthnxbye. I’ll read on.
I wish there is a hotline for government related inquiries.
Driver’s License for example. So I can be able to ask what requirements should I bring, what office should I visit, related fees, and processing time. Someone I can talk to who KNOWS what he/she is talking about, and not just someone who heard it from someone who heard it too from someone else. Facts. And truth.
This will diminish the number of fixers, and corruption too.
Why do I suggest this?
I have encountered many unfair and profit-oriented government workers. Here in our province, some people who work at the municipal offices can’t even give proper advice. I know, some of them are just clerks, and not the proper authority to some of our inquiries, but what surprises me even more, is that they GIVE YOU WRONG ADVICES. They don’t tell you, ‘Hey sorry, but your inquiry should be taken to Mr./Ms. Head Somebody because she’s the one who handles these types of issues.’ NO…. They tell you to do this, and do that, and do some little shit, and then another of that thing, and then you find out after all your hard work that you’ve done, you’ve not been following the process, the legal process I mean. You’ll find that out later after you’ve wasted enough money and some golden time.
Is it too much to integrate the government offices, and have a single number to dial, and ask the real people who knows how to shake their stuff about your concerns?
And yeah, well, please orient these government employees how to communicate well, and respect due to them is the respect they give. I have met some who communicate very well, and are not afraid to respect those who are innocent about government processes, I met one today at the municipal office, but there are countless of them who always look grumpy and are easily-irritated if you have too many inquiries, they might as well spit in you face and say that you’re stupid.
Is this too much to ask? Oh well. Mr. President I hope you’re listening, and I hope you still remember what you said.
PEOPLE REMEMBER. Please remember as well.
This is a rant post, if you’re not up for it, might as well not read this.
NAKAKAINIS. NAKAKAINIS. NAKAKAINIS tong pinsan namin.
Makikigamit sya ng laptop, sasabihin makiki-research, etcetera, etcetera. Magre-research siya for 5 minutes or so, tapos makikita na lang naming nagdo-DotA lang siya. Oo na, ako na ang masama, pero kung wala kang PC at gusto niyong mag-DotA, magpunta ka sa internet shop, okay?! I just can’t take it anymore! Kung wala kang pambayad sa internet shop, tanggapin mo na lang sa sarili mo that DotA is a luxury you can’t afford! This may sound mean, even rude, but srsly, if you are in our position, almost everyday ba naman na may makiki-agaw sa laptop mo/niyo e hindi ka mabi-biwisit?! Try mo mga 4- times a week, minsan pa straight buong week, andito siya.
Sa mga nakakakilala sa kanya, sabihin niyo nang matapobre ako at masama ugali ko pero I hate the fact that you’re abusing what’s left of my kindness. Isa na nga lang ang laptop sa bahay for the meantime dahil nasira yung laptop ko, kaya share pa kami dun sa laptop ng sister ko. And that shared time is still being taken away by YOU?! What the hell man, NOT COOL!
Ganito ka-over ang pagi-invade niya sa privacy namin…
Minsan, isang hapon kami ay natutulog ni sister, pumasok siya sa bahay at GINISING si sister dahil makiki-download siya ng… let’s say… Chuvachuhu Movie na kelangan nila sa school. I DON’T BUY IT! After 5 minutes or so, as usual, nagdo-DotA na naman siya dahil hindi naman pala mahanap yung Chuvachuchu Movie. Damn hardcore! Pwede bang letsugas na yan. Nang-istorbo ka na nga ng tulog ng ibang tao na pagod sa school, makiki-DotA ka lang pala. Oh yeah, ROCK ‘n ROLL. Ulit lang, GINISING niya ang sister ko. Isa pa, GINISING NIYA ANG SISTER KO para mag-DotA!
Gusto ko na nga i-delete yung DotA para wala na siyang dahilan. Pero ayoko nga kasi nagdo-DotA ako, bakit ba?! DotAngnang yan. And besides kahit di siya maka-DotA, kung anu-ano lang nilalaro niya sa net, ok fine, bored siya, but deal with it! Matulog ka sa bahay niyo, o kaya mag-tumbling ka.
Aside from that, he’s SPENDING A LOT OF TIME SA KWARTO namin (take note, kwarto = private space, ayt?), na kapag may gumagamit ng laptop ay papanuorin niya lang ang ginagawa mo sa laptop to the point na super awkward na dahil hindi discreet ang panunuod niya sa ginagawa mo sa net. He’s in your face, as in mga 5 inches from your cheeks para manuod sayo. Kahit pa nagbabasa ka lang ng tweets, nagre-reblog, o kaya nagu-update ng status sa FB. What the fucking hell?!? E pano kung gusto kong manuod ng porn? Tapos sabay kami manunuod, ganon?!
Pag hindi pa siya makagamit ng laptop at wala pang nanunuod ng tv, manunuod siya hanggang gabing-gabi (iba ang gabing-gabi sa province, yung mga 10pm niyang pag-uwi, madaling araw na yun dito sa probinsya) yung tipong nakahiga na kami ni sister at matutulog na kami di pa kami maka-pwesto ng maayos dahil andun siya sa paanan namin, pero di pa rin siya titigil. Tapos pag tipong mahuhulog ka na sa pagtulog mo at malapit ng tumulo ang laway mo, saka ka niya gigisingin kasi uuwi na siya at kelangan mo ng i-lock ang bahay para sa pag-uwi ni Young Master Cousin. What the ef?! May TV naman sila, wala nga lang cable pero pag ganun naman, WAG NANG CHOOSY!!!
Oo na, masama na naman ugali ko, pero try niyo kasing ma-invade ng ganun ka-insensitive at inconsiderate na tao. Kung di ka mairita, aawardan kita. Bonggang-bongga.
Kung mabasa man to ng mga kapatid niya. I don’t really care. I almost tagged you anyway. I have a message for you. If you feel awful for him, and you think I’m the meanest person in the world, go ahead. BUY YOUR BROTHER A FUCKING COMPUTER! So he won’t have to bother us all the time, and I won’t have to say these horrible things. Deal? Nice. Shake hands.
At this moment, nasa kwarto na naman siya. Gumagawa ng slideshow ang sister ko sa lapag ng kwarto habang siya ay NAKAHILATA sa kama (as in!) nanunuod ng tv, kahit na sinabi ko na mag-aaral ako sa kwarto, pero lumipat na lang ako sa sala, dahil nanunuod na siya ng tv at di ko mapigilan si Young Master Cousin.
Meegahd! Ako pa ang napatalsik sa kwarto. KWARTO! KWARTO! PRIVATE SPACE! DotAngnang yan! Ako, medyo mabait lang. Buti sa net lang ako nag-snap. Ayoko sa real world, dahil madidiwara ang mga tao at magugulo ang Brgy. Burgos. Fine? Fine. Fuck you.